life is choices.

When I carefully choose what I want to pay attention to, my heart swells.

When I let the world be in charge of what I should pay attention to, my heart sinks.

 

 

Amsterdam/details

The first four images were shot in Rembrandt’s studio.  When I travel the moments that stay with me are the details.  I’ve trained my eye to look closer at things because looking too big can overwhelm my senses sometimes.  The photos taken in Rembrandt’s studio were so remarkable to me because of the quality of light.  No wonder he created the work he did, even on a grey day the north facing light was beyond stunning.

Rembrandt Museum Amsterdam

Amsterdam/design

I took this photograph in the oldest church in Amsterdam. This room truly made me swoon.  I might use this image as the place I go to in my head when the world’s just too much.

This church is in the red-light district—it was founded in 1213 and consecrated in 1306.  After the Reformation it became a Calvinist church.  Here’s a link with more information.

http://www.amsterdam.info/oude-kerk/

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These globes and the plants were in the street front windows of an apartment.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAThis photo is musician Elliot Smith.  This image was on a storage kiosk.

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OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAThese books were beside each other I just thought it was funny. Pretty sure these girls don’t care in the least about mid-century design.

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Amsterdam/street photography

I love street photography.  The raw moment when something sparks me.  Be sure to scroll down and check out the pigeon slideshow.  My daughter Willa had an interesting encounter near the royal palace.

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three very good questions…

Today I closed the door for the last time on my much-loved studio of 15+ years.  It’s empty.  My work is now in storage.  This is the end of one era and the start of another.

I keep thinking about something my husband, Jeff told me a few years ago.

What’s working?

What’s not?

What’s next?

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  1. The last painting in my studio.
  2. My paint covered work shirt.
  3. A layered image of me and the empty studio.

anxious OR hopeful?

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Do you want extreme uneasiness of mind OR to cherish a desire with anticipation?  When I read these definitions out loud they prompted remarkably different feelings in me.

I was once was told that worrying is a prayer for something bad to happen.

If that’s true, than hope is a prayer for something good to happen, right?

—Author Edwin H. Friedman in “A Failure of Nerve: Leadership in the Age of a Quick Fix” wrote:

“…the climate of contemporary America has become so chronically anxious that our society has gone into emotional regression that is toxic to well-defined leadership.”

“…chronic anxiety that characterizes the emotional processes of contemporary American civilization influences our thoughts and our leaders toward safety and certainty rather than boldness and adventure.”

This book is a remarkable read about leadership in contemporary America—Business‚ Government, Coaching, Teaching, Clergy & Parenting.  The central idea is that any system requiring leadership with way too much anxiety becomes static, lacks innovation and is unable to seek out creative solutions.  In my heart I desire boldness and adventure over safety and certainty.  In my life I get racked with worry and anxiety, but I have a choice as to what I hold closer to my heart.  We always have a choice.

Holding onto our anxiety is easy right now, it’s being spoon fed to us 24 hours a day.

I have hope in the innovation of the next generation.  I have hope in science to spark cures for disease, find unique ways to educate our children, protect our climate and invent really cool new ways to do things.  I have hope that we can listen to each other.  I have hope that we don’t constantly fear those who are different than us.  I have hope that our better angels will emerge.

We actually do have a choice to make between being ANXIOUS or HOPEFUL.

My bet is on HOPE.  Without it, we’re screwed.

http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/151881.A_Failure_of_Nerve