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interior ruckus—part one i had no idea at twenty-nine an unfamiliar inner voice so bossy, persuasive now, right now hormonal messengers working overtime baby, baby, baby OR so i assumed... in my 20s, i knew so little about my biology youth doesn't ask many questions baby, baby, baby oh, to possess that blissful ignorance again i understand now… my ancient biology didn’t take over, my private sociology did interior ruckus of age & expectations my societal & familial programming working overtime
interior ruckus—part two period late hopeful & cautious baby, baby, baby a September birthday? NOPE, not this month my body sighed moons passed late again my body whispered, YES a winter birthday? baby, baby, baby my son arrived late in February all giant and squirmy and mine three years later that familiar drumbeat my personal sociology our son needs a sibling my body whispered again maybe baby? Saturday—NO Monday—YES, and... babies, in my wife? baby A & baby B gritty little homesteaders inhabitants of my territory overlapping claims our complex symbiosis my daughters arrived in the middle of May all tiny and squirmy and mine
interior ruckus—part three mothering through menopause hormones tectonic & not just mine age and expectations divergent boundaries epicenters evershifting interior ruckus a lifetime spent studying the waves vibrations recorded push and pull energy released expected motherhood's seismic shift less vigilance now required when monitoring underground movement tremors are expected
Modernism (1875-1960) The responses of modernists to modernity range from triumphal celebration to agonized condemnation and differ in mode from direct picturing of the impacts of modernization to extreme renovations of purely artistic assumptions and practice. —Google Arts & Culture
Standing Girl, Egon Schiele c. 1908-1909
I know my interpretation of Egon’s-Standing Girl doesn’t possess the same raw sexuality in any way. However, slowing down is shifting my perspectives in many ways & not just in my creative work.
Impressionism (1860 - ...) Impressionism is a 19th-century art movement characterized by relatively small, thin, yet visible brush strokes, open composition, emphasis on accurate depiction of light...ordinary subject matter...crucial element of human perception and experience. —Google Arts & Culture
Baroque (1600 - 1725) Usage of the term is often extended to the whole period 1600–1750 without qualifying restrictions, or improperly to mean a florid and elaborate style in art, architecture, music or literature, of any date from late antiquity to the early 20th century. —Google Arts & Culture
Some mornings I feel settled, calmly visiting with Jeff over coffee, reading what I choose, editing photos, and having a bit of discipline not to jump from thought to thought.
Today, however, was definitely not one of those days, maybe the snow threw me off, yesterday was SPRING for goodness sake.
I looked at my browser history for some insight. I could somewhat follow my own tracks. However, if I disappeared today even the most intuitive detective would not know where to begin to understand my bread crumbs…sourdough, whole wheat, cranberry walnut, cheddar jalapeno, then a lone Dorito perhaps?
OOhhhh, I want a cheddar jalapeno bagel now, I can finish this later…or maybe not at all.
Try being a detective and see if you can decipher your own state of mind. I didn’t solve anything. However, I am stepping away from the screen for a while and doing something else.
Here are my links, as if you don’t have enough bread crumbs of your own.
Father and Daughter by Paul Simon: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COQPSoRFdwg
Trust your intuition
It’s just like going fishin’
You cast your line and
Hope you get a bite
There is one spectacle grander than the sea, that is the sky; there is one spectacle grander than the sky, that is the interior of the soul.
—Victor Hugo, French author of Les Misérables